Thank You, Pain

Most of you know by now that I truly believe in the power of gratitude as a conscious, daily practise. For me, it is the quickest way to shift my mood, to change my life – to create miracles!

However, I know that while it is easy to say THANK YOU for joy, peace and excitement, what about the rest? Can we be thankful for the less obvious good? Even if it broke our heart…open? We needn’t deny our hurt and disappointment in the process but in my experience, it is often the most challenging moments that reveal the true strength and power of our Spirit, and remind us of who and what truly matters.

For those reasons alone, I find myself grateful and forgiving, not just today but many times over.  It is, as I said, a daily practise for me and not always easy to remember.

The following words flowed through me a couple of years ago and though it was written to express my own feelings, I am sharing it with you now because it’s is essentially about this very topic – about focusing on my huge blessings in disguise  –  and you may relate to it, too.

THANK YOU for being here and reading about life and love as I know it (now)!

Anna

THANKFUL

I am thankful for the words that hurt me,
and open a wound to bleed.
I am thankful for the tears I cry,
and how they set me free.
I am thankful for eyes that show me,
and the truth I begin to see.
I am thankful for the ways I love
and the heart I wear upon my sleeve.

I am thankful for the scars that mark me
and remind me I am whole
I am thankful for my heavy metal
never recognized as gold
I am thankful for every story
and the lies both bought and sold
I am thankful for the time that wasn’t
and those that couldn’t ever know

I am thankful for the ties that break me
and prove to me I’m strong
I am thankful for the chance to choose again
when the rest is all but gone
I am thankful for all the bruises
that breathe life into my song
I am thankful for the ways I love
and for the me I can become…

© Anna Taylor 2012

 

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The Angels’ Voice: A Message for Messengers

Today, I write to acknowledge the voice that says I cannot. The incessant, nagging voice that has become increasingly loud at the first sign of an opportunity to share my writing more publicly. The voice that tries to convince me that there is nothing I could write that hasn’t already been done, and that even if there was, it could be far more eloquently and skillfully expressed by someone with a college education or at the very least, more experience of writing – and of life.

It is a hesitant, anxious voice that pulls me back to a time when I fully immersed myself in creativity, only to be exposed to a barrage of criticism and judgement. The voice that even pulls me away from sitting here, giving me countless reasons why I should divert my attention to something else more important. It is almost paralyzing in it’s assault, which only enforces the feeling that I am unqualified and incapable…

However, as I give this voice some space to air itself, I feel another warm, friendly tone rising up above the fear. The voice that reminds me, as it always does, that comparing myself to anyone or anything is completely unnecessary and who I am, the road I’ve travelled, and what I’ve learned along the way is unique; that as I show up, authentically as me, those who are drawn to my energy and my perspective will show up, too. Whether that be one, or a thousand or even a million people is not up to me, but it is up to me to decide to be the messenger I have always known myself to be. This soothing voice, fills me to the brim and coaxes me into remembering that this sense of purpose, this calling within my heart, is the only qualification I need. So all I have to do, as this moment proves, is to be REAL because the quest for human perfection is the number one reason for procrastination and inactivity. And, as if to lift me from my slumber, the voice gently repeats a truth I’ve heard many times: I am, as every other soul is, Divinely perfect. And this is my message. This is THE message within my writing here and maybe the only message there ever truly is: I am enough. We are ALL enough.

This is the voice of love, this is the Angels’ Voice. I am listening. I am allowing. I am sharing. I AM.

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*Inspiration is inspiration. It is not logical or planned. It is spontaneous and magical. It is not to be justified or explained, because some things are just unexplainable. Except that it can make the non-sensical seem like the most sensible and only thing left to do. And turn an ordinary person, place and moment into the most extraordinary hero, journey and gift.

©Anna Taylor

*This paragraph was written in 2011

The Greatest Love Of All

Today, I was looking through some old channelled messages from the Angels and found this very personal one from September 2008. Part of me began to wonder if I have come any further along the proverbial road of ‘Self Love’ since then. But I KNOW I have. Simply because of what I have allowed into my life and what I now believe to be true about myself. It is just appropriate to be reminded of this again, on the eve of what I call ‘Love Day’. Let’s peel another layer and LOVE ourselves more, OK?

Love to you!
Anna

I was going to bed the other night, thinking about how I feel about myself and how IN THE PAST my own self esteem issues have blocked me from what I want most in life (ironic really!) and the Angels said:

“Do you remember just how PERFECT you are?” 

“Umm, yes”, I said….

The Angels said “Your version of perfect is quite distorted. The world in which you live strives for the kind of perfection that is never fulfilling, or isn’t until you really get the meaning of what we see as perfection – that is YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD. THERE ARE NO MISTAKES. 

“Yes”, I said. I know that. “I’m just trying to really GET it.”

“We know. But remember not to make it too complicated. Just be. Just let yourself be who you are. Take time out for yourself, honour your own space, your own desires, your dreams. We know that you do this but for some reason you do all of that and then get caught up on the outer appearance of everyone else and try to compare it with others. Who said that walking as “they” do is best? It’s just different Anna, and you know what we say about different. That different is different only to remind others that in truth EVERYONE is the same. 

“So why do some people not see that?” I said.

“Because some people are trying to look outside themselves for the Divine. And even you are to a certain point, Anna. Because if you truly remembered who you are then your body would just feel like another amazing divine part of you and those people that decide to announce how different you are, are just there because you choose to hear them.” 

“So what do I do now?”

“You are doing well, Anna. We see you honouring yourself so much more. We see that you are finally beginning to welcome your body as part of You. And it is not ALL of you but it is a precious gift that you have given yourself. You’ll see. But now you must do your best to take the word “compare” or “different” out of your vocabulary. And in the mean time, not care about the reactions of others. Maybe, when someone “notices” you, you could see it that you are just allowing another to see how unique each one of you is. For all you know, those people that stare and ask about you could, like you, be helping to change Earth’s perception of “perfection” – one person at a time. So thank God for that. Thank yourself for that. Because the You that decided to come to Earth this way, knew what You were doing…”

“OK, yes, that’s a good reminder. I did. Not easy. But I do remember that. It brings tears. But I think it’s because I remember. So what about the visions I’ve had of me dancing? I saw myself running on a track last week. How does that fit in with it all?”

“That fits because it is the truth. Because you CAN do all those things. And ARE already in many ways. But again, just not in ways that you (or others) might expect. And you receive those visions as a reminder that your prayers ARE heard and answered. Just because you chose your body as it is now, it does not mean it cannot change as you remember more of who you are. BUT dear Anna, remember, when you are running, dancing and all of that you are not MORE perfect! Because you cannot be MORE perfect. You are as you are!”

“Thank you. So if I chose my body for particular reasons, it’s OK to want to be “freer” in those ways now?”

“Yes, Anna. It is always OK. You are always free to change and choose again. Especially if it brings more peace. There is just no pressure from us. And those who truly love you will love you anyway. But as we’ve said, it’s most important for you to LOVE YOU no matter what! And THAT is what inspires another. And, if that feeling and knowing leads to you experiencing that “change” in your body so you ARE more able to dance and run as you desire, then that will inspire another too. But let yourself inspire yourself first. Be your own inspiration. That is the true miracle. To remember who you truly are…..we see you, we know you. 

It was one of those moments that helped kick my ego out for a while and remember what matters! I love those Angels for loving me. It’s good for me to be here in this moment. I AM feeling good about ME. Ahhhh, another layer……another step closer to, as Whitney Houston says, “The Greatest Love of All”. May we ALL feel that Love and in turn, change the whole word…”

14 Ways To Make 2014 Fabulous!

Are you ready for a brand new year?! I am! Here are some tips from me to help you make 2014 your BEST year yet!!

14 Ways To Make 2014 Fabulous!

 
Be CLEAR – Be clear about what you want and then ask for it! As the saying goes, if you don’t ask you don’t get. So spend time contemplating your true desires and set your intentions accordingly. When you are clear, miracles are set in motion!
 
 
DREAM BIG – You are a powerful manifestor who deserves all the blessings in the world! The only limits are the ones you place on yourself. Your dreams are yours for a reason. So visualize them, believe in them and let go of how they might come true! God and the Angels will handle that!
 
LISTEN – If prayer and intention is asking, meditation is listening. Take time out of each day, even five minutes, to consciously connect with God, your Angels and your higher self. You needn’t be still or in total silence to do so – if walking or dancing or singing expands your awareness, then do that. But listen – to your inner voice, your gut and to the repetitive, inspiring thoughts you receive. This is your guidance, your connection to an infinite source of Divine wisdom. Trust it!
 
COMITT TO YOUR DREAMS – It’s important to ask for what you want but if you are not focusing your time and energy on the things that matter to you then you’re giving mixed signals. Say YES to what you want by taking guided action towards it!
 
ASK FOR HELP WHEN YOU NEED IT – Apart from asking God and the Angels, who are always there to support you, you are also one of seven billion people on the planet, with unique gifts that can assist and make a difference to eachother in many, many different ways. You are not meant to struggle alone. Allow yourself to RECEIVE. When you do, you have even more to give!
 
TAKE CARE OF YOUR BODY – Your body is the reason you can be here on Earth and it is a precious gift. Instead of focusing on shape and size, honour your body by treating it well. Eat and drink healthily and pay attention to anything it needs, including whatever exercise is right for you and plenty of rest. If you feel great, you always look great and shine from the inside out!
 
SURROUND YOURSELF WITH PEOPLE WHO SUPPORT YOU – You can tell a lot about someone by the friends they have, so be honest with yourself about the company you keep. Are they really true friends? Spend time with people who are happy to celebrate your good times and who are there to comfort you when you’re having one of those days. If these kinds of relationships are something you are manifesting more of in 2014, see the tip below!
 
BE WHO YOU ARE – You were born to be YOU so trying to be someone other than who youreally are does not work, even if it might seem easier. It may mean saying goodbye to people and situations that no longer resonate with who you are, but when you are unapologetically you, everything flows and any void you may’ve created by letting go, means you can attract the people and situations that are for your highest good!
 
MAKE PLEASURE A PRIORITY – People pleasing is draining and exhausting and you cannot be the source of anyone else’s happiness. So please yourself! Embrace your sensuality and your passion. Do the things that make you feel excited and wonderful without guilt or hesitation and in turn, you will inspire and uplift others because your passion is your purpose! You are meant to live joyfully!
 
FORGIVE – Be willing to forgive yourself and others. We all make mistakes and we are all doing the best we can with what we know. Some things may seem easier to forgive than others but remember forgiveness does not mean condoning someone’s actions, or even welcoming them back into your life, it means deciding to let go of the toxins and the pain you are carrying about the situation. You cannot change anyone but yourself. So by forgiving, you are releasing the past and freeing up space for your dreams to come true!
 
LIGHTEN UP –  Don’t take life too seriously. It is an experience. And never underestimate the power of laughter. It is the best medicine and literally lightens your energy! Watching funny movies or playing games with children are sure ways to make you giggle!
 
TRY NEW THINGS – Life is full of opportunities and going  to a new place, learning a new skill, or doing something you’ve never done before may mean pushing past your comfort zone but it could end up being the best decision you’ve ever made, or the answer to your prayers. If not, then that’s OK. You can say you did it. But if you don’t take the leap, you’ll never know!
 
BE GRATEFUL – Taking time to recognize all the blessings already in your life is the quickest way to raise your vibration and lift your mood, therefore opening you up to even more good! No matter what you are going through there is always something to be grateful for. You may even decide to keep a gratitude journal and write three unique things you are thankful for each day. It’s an amazingly simple yet profound practice.
 
SAY I LOVE YOU – When you say those words and mean it, you change the world. Why? Because love is who you are and when you express that love, when you share it with another, you are acknowledging the Divine truth of All That Is. Especially when you look in the mirror and say ‘I love you!’ You are entirely loved and loveable exactly as you are. Choose, right now, to begin to see the amazing, powerful, beautiful soul that is YOU and 2014 promises to be the best year ever!!!
 
I’m with you all the way and look forward to sharing more with you this year!
 
Much love and thank you for being here,
Anna and the Angels

Your Sensitivity

Hello lovely people,

These words flowed through me this morning and I wanted to share them with you as my first blog in a while!

Your Sensitivity

Never let your sensitivity stop you. Let it become your super power.
Never let your sensitivity stress you. Let it be felt as the strength within you.
Never let your sensitivity silence you. Let it be heard in your song and your story.
Never let your sensitivity scare you. Let it be known as your sacred gift.
Never let your sensitivity separate you. Let it be felt as the sexiest thing about you.
Never let your sensitivity shrink you. Let it be reason to shine in all your glory.

With much love,

Anna

©Anna Taylor, 2013

Thirty Two Things I’ve Learned

Last year, just before my 32nd birthday , I wrote 31 things I’ve learned or been reminded of during that time. And now, a year older, I share 32 with you. 🙂 Some life lessons I find continual  so there may be similarities. But I also know I have felt brand new this year, so what I share here is also a reflection of that.

This is my truth. I encourage you to contemplate and discover your own.

1) My belief in Divine Timing has no bearing on my patience.
2) Becoming an Auntie is one of the best thing that’s ever happened to me.
3) Being a Mum is definitely something I hope to happen for me.
4) I love being in my 30’s, even though most people assume I’m ten years younger.
5) Facebook is a wonderful avenue for creativity and communication.
6) Facebook is also a techonology and should not be taken seriously.
7) When someone shows you who they are believe them.
8) Life makes no sense sometimes. And that can be equally devastating and incredible.
9) You cannot change anyone else. Only yourself. Believe me.
10) The Law of Attraction is a very powerful Universal law but it’s not the only one.
11) I cannot resist salty food. Especially crisps (chips in the USA!).
12) I cannot be all things to all people. And that’s OK.
13) Having a couple of people in my life whom I can talk to about anything gives me the greatest comfort.
14) Knowing I am also that person for them gives me the greatest joy.
15) The more I trust my intuition, the stronger it gets.
16) I am a deeply romantic, passionate woman. And I’m proud of it.
17) Money will never be my motivation or my happiness but it does give me the freedom to share more and for that reason I accept it without hesitation or limit.
18) I am very trusting but once my trust is broken, I’ll keep you at arms length.
19) I love having flowers in my house. Except lillies that give me a headache.
20) No one is worth closing your heart for. I promise.
21) No one can make you feel bad. That’s an inside job.
22) However it’s always wise to spend time with people who make an effort to brighten your day.
23) The simple things make the biggest difference.
24) We teach what we need to learn.
25) I am (slightly) addicted to my iPhone.
26) I have a (slight) crush on Josh Duhamel.
27) Rejection really is God’s protection. The miracle that brings two people together is also the miracle that has them drift apart (and the true miracle is usually only revealed later).
28) The power of hormones cannot be underestimated.
29) The power of a good night’s sleep cannot be overestimated.
30) The biggest blessings often wear the biggest disguises.
31) Do not confuse sensitivity with weakness. The ability to feel, and to express those feelings is a great strength.
32) Underneath all other words, love is always the question and always the answer. Either because we have remembered it or need reminding of it.
Much love,
Anna

What If You Knew Your Dream Would Come True?

‘If you knew, without a doubt, that your dream was going to come true within three weeks, would you prepare in any way? What would you do?’

That was the question I posted on my Facebook page a few days ago.

The response was so interesting and many of the answers hinted at the kind of dreams people had, as well as the enormous gratitude they would feel and express! Wonderful and so uplifting!

But equally fascinating were those who said they would panic and not know what to do, and I couldn’t help but wonder how many of us are more scared of GREAT things happening than we care to admit? How many of us are truly more frightened of success than failure?  We may say we want this, that and the other, but then we put the brakes on because we wonder if we could really handle it truly happening… or if we really deserve to live our dreams at all!

I believe that for the most part, our lack of faith and/or feelings of worthiness are at the crux of all our questions. If we REALLY knew that we are entirely worthy of having it all then, I’m sure we would. In Divine Timing.

That’s not to say that we are in control of everything that occurs in our often challenging, mysterious lives, but what can we do to bridge that gap? What changes can we make in our lives NOW if we knew our dream was arriving? Would we work on treating ourselves more kindly? Would we make a start on clearing out our old clothes, sorting out our paperwork? Would we buy something that we have always wanted? Would we make that call we’ve always wanted to make? Would we ask for help? In other words, what we would STOP procrastinating about? What would suddenly become a priority rather than something that didn’t really matter?

And how, too, would we act if we KNEW we could not be disappointed? I know there’s often a little voice in my head that prevents me from feeling the full joy of anticipation, for fear that it might not actually happen, and decides that if I don’t expect anything then I cannot be hurt if it doesn’t. But that voice cannot have power over me now. It may feel ‘safer’ but I’ve come to realize that all the best things require some risk and I refuse to let the past define my future.

Believe me, I’m not writing this because I have it all worked out. I am a work in progress too, of course! But I look back at the extraordinary things that have occurred in my life and while some of them seemed ‘out of the blue’,  many of them were because (as I’ve said in previous blogs), I acted as if it was already happening. And there has never been a more powerful way for the Universe to respond than that!

And even when Divine Timing comes into play and there are just a few more pieces of the puzzle to fall into place that we can’t yet see,  being thankful and filled with excitement, being open to all the magical possibilities ahead, is surely a far more joyful way to live our lives than the alternative, isn’t it?

As I type this I hear the Angels whisper in my ear:

Do you want to know the best part? If you live your life with an open heart, with this kind of joy, then it always turns out to be greater than you ever imagined anyway! 

With much love from the Angels… and me,

Anna

This Part Of Me

This Part Of Me

There’s this part of me, part of me that I did my best to avoid well into my twenties, only catching glimpses of it on a day when I had enough energy to take a trip, or to watch a movie, or even just to get dressed into something nicer than the comfiest clothes I could find. ‘Avoid’ is probably the wrong word. I just couldn’t feel it at all. Yes, I am a girlie girl – I love make up and clothes and pretty things. But when you’re fighting to get through the day, to muster up enough will to do the simplest tasks, all of the frills are rarely given a chance. Perhaps my circumstances were good enough reason back then. I was hardly at school, or around my peers and my social life was such that dinner out with a friend or two was a major event, especially when that alone was likely to leave me needing hours of rest to recover from the fun. How could I go out and carve a life for myself in the state I was in? However, as my health improved and I was more able to live the things loved, rather than just imagine them in my head, I started to discover this energy within me, this fire, this connection to my body, other than pain, that I had barely touched on before. I remember once, receiving a very quiet but clearly Divine message that ‘passion breeds passion’, and I soon realized what it meant. As I immersed myself in creativity and all that I was passionate about, life began mirroring these passionate experiences back to me – it was like a switch had been turned on! For the first time, I actually felt something more electric than the compassionate love I had always felt for everyone around me. It’s true that I can love anyone given half the chance, and those I am more connected to than usual, really do get all of me. Or almost. Because there’s this part of me, a part of me that most rarely see. The difference now is, I cannot avoid it anymore. It’s there all the time, longing to be seen. I have asked myself over and over why I kept it neatly hidden away for so long; there’s a very good argument to say, that it’s because I’m waiting for the ‘best’; that I never had the chance to fall in love growing up, so why waste a moment on messing around with ‘maybes’? I’ll just bide my time; that dreams do come true and I am NOT settling for anything less than I deserve. But if I was entirely honest, that isn’t the whole story and I think my health challenges only magnified the reasons why the true, romantic love I desire has eluded me so far. It’s easy for me to see, too, in the big scheme of things, beyond all the physical diagnosis, that my dear, teenage body was so tired of it’s disconnection with the rest of me, that it shut down. Because, in the last few years, when I’ve felt alive and well with sensuality, I realize how quickly my mind is dragged into the dark corners that tell me this is not a body I could share with anyone; that even if a man did initially feel a pull towards me, they would soon see all my flaws and incapabilities and kindly but quickly gravitate towards someone else – someone who could give them things I never can; how the kind of beautiful, sexy, strong, loving man I desire would be here by now if he was going to show up… and who the heck am I for wanting so much, anyway? Who would want ME, anyway? Yes, I know how ridiculous that sounds. Believe me. Cue the unavailable men. Or the unrequited attraction in either direction – all a result of my buying into the heaviness that I couldn’t possibly carry about anyone on the planet… except myself. Which is why I am sharing this with you now, and why at this point in my life, I want to give the huge, limiting lies a voice so I can truly let them GO. And I know I’m not the only one. I’m sure there are a multitude of reasons we give ourselves to try and justify why we are unworthy of what we truly desire, especially when it comes to love and romance, because for the majority of us, it’s what we want most in the world, right? But this part of me, this passionate woman in her so-called ‘prime’ –  is READY. I am no longer going to deny who I am or what I want, for fear of it being unattainable to me. I’m going to fully acknowledge the sexual, sensual part of me as being as important as any other, and claim my belief in deep, mutual attraction and love not just in a general sense, not just in my favourite movie or for my best friend, but for myself. For the ‘us’ I want to create. And I’m going to let it take me wherever it needs to and be open to whatever happens, because I know that the only way I can have what and who is right for me is to be utterly truthful in the first place. I’m also going to remember that when I am frustrated by the perception others have of me, (‘angelic and sweet’ is lovely but so overused in my world!) that they simply serve as a reminder to be ALL of who I am and not just what is expected of me. So here I am: feeling the energy of my Beloved, and excited to trust in the intensity that tells me he is near! And if this message speaks to you in any way, please do join me in choosing to live fully by making a promise to yourself to LOVE – not only in the ways you’ve been used to, or the ways that feel most comfortable to you, but in every way! For me, at least, there seems no other choice in this moment, which is terrifying yet incredibly liberating! Who would want ME? Someone rare, perhaps, but someone… From my heart and all of me, Anna

Money, money, money!

Truth be told, I’ve never been bothered by money. It’s never been my motivation in life and still isn’t. However, I’ve realized recently that because of that, there’s a part of me that has kept it at bay, too, because I didn’t want to seem selfish or materialistic.  Sound familiar?

Many of us are so programmed to ‘focus on service’ that the tendency to want to give help away for free or for very little is at our own expense. I’ve heard from countless people who believe that because something is ‘natural’ to them it doesn’t feel right to charge for it. But you know what? We are meant to do what is natural to us, what brings us most joy, and right now, in the time we are in, money is the way we get to LIVE on the planet. It is the energy we give and receive in exchange for something else.

There are times that is has been very apparent to me. When I wanted to manifest money to record my CD for example, I was very specific about the amount required and I was clear and determined that it was going to happen so I could share my music. This was my dream and nothing was going to stop me. And it didn’t! The money arrived in miraculous ways. Similarly, when I want to take a class or travel, the money so often arrives because I see it as a must. There’s no other option. Well, then how come at other times it doesn’t seem so easy? I’ve realized at least for me, it’s because I put a limit on what I can receive. It’s almost as if I can focus on something specific to spend money on but then it goes almost as quickly as it arrives because I have ‘enough’ for that thing. But to have plenty, well, that’s another story!

I know deep down that the only limits there are in this Universe are the ones we place on ourselves and that if I truly want to live the life I desire (which includes helping others!) I must receive. It sounds obvious but the more we have, the more we can give and share. I’m always saying that my dream is to help people’s dreams come true. But I also say that it’s so important to learn to put ourselves first because that alone inspires others to do so, too!

So I’ve been listening to my own advice by changing my relationship to money and placing more value on it as an example of placing m ore value on myself. The possibilities are endless and while there’s no overnight change in my finances, it feels liberating to acknowledge my desire for a new level of abundance in my life and see how it shows up! Just imagine how amazing the world would be if everyone with heart-centred intentions allowed themselves to be wealthy! The places and the ways we’d spend money would completely change, followed by the ‘economy’ and the fear/lack mentality in the media and so on… We ARE the change we wish to see in the world!

I didn’t intend to share this on a day where many are celebrating Mother’s Day (it’s in March in the UK for some reason!) but it’s interesting to me that many women who usually give will hopefully be allowing themselves to receive love, time, gifts, etc! The feminine energy is indeed our receptive side and as women, when we allow ourselves to receive we also become more of who we are! And if you are a man reading this, you too! Balance is where it’s at and I’d say that it’s about time we made some changes to re-address that balance, don’t you?

I’m with you on the journey. Woohoo for abundance – including money –  for us all!

Much love,

Anna

Do You Feel Behind?

It feels like AGES since I last posted a message here – and that’s probably because it is! There are no excuses except that I’ve had a lot to juggle and sometimes there are things that get left behind.

The only thing with that is, I felt bad about not writing and especially so when I’ve found myself needing to rest because I’ve felt like I ‘should’ be doing something. Like writing to you!

However, as I am reminded of the words I’ve shared with you in a previous post ‘Would I say that to my best friend?’  I realize the answer – no, I wouldn’t. I wouldn’t be so harsh with anyone needing to take a break. So instead, I have just had to let it be, knowing that my blog and those who read it would still be here when I had the time and the inspiration to post. And now I do!

I actually spent most of my young life feeling like I needed to ‘play catch up’. From as far back as I can remember, I worked hard to do the things that my friends and family had done before me – crawling, walking, playing sports, going out, working, earning money – they were all things I did later than usual and nothing ever felt good enough because there was always something MORE to do to be like everyone else. Nobody ever actually said that but I never felt particularly acknowledged for what I WAS doing and so in my head I was constantly battling with the need to ‘do better’.

Of course, I now understand that there is always more to do. Life is full of opportunities. However, that doesn’t mean I, or any of us,  have to compare where we are with others and then decide that it isn’t enough, neither do we have to spend our time focused on what we haven’t done yet!

The Angels recently spoke to me and said:

‘You have not missed out, you have not been left behind and there is nothing you need to do to catch up. Where you are right now is perfect. Be fully present and enjoy the gift that is this moment.’

That’s the thing. We ARE exactly where we need to be. Even when things feel stuck. Actually, especially when things feel stuck! We’ve just finished a Mercury retrograde (where the planet seemingly goes backwards) which is a period of time that allows us all to reflect, re-evaluate, release, to re-visit. Any of those sound familar? The intensity is not always easy and I’m breathing a sigh of relief that we can begin to feel movement again too, but just like the ebb and flow of the tide we need those quiet, reflective times so that the next steps forward again can be even more wonderful! I have found myself needing to be very still this past week and while my ego likes to argue with that, I also trust that is what I need so I’ve done my best to honour that and just BE.

So whatever you haven’t done, whatever isn’t happening, whatever you feel behind with, RELAX! Let go of guilt and of any ‘should’ or ‘have to’ because they will only weigh you down and rob you of the gift of where you are which is completely and utterly Divine.

And you know what? When you remember that everything flows anyway. Promise. 😉

Much love and compassion to you,

Anna