We See You: An Angel Message

Dear Ones

We see you. We know who you are. And we wanted to remind you this day that who you are is powerful, beautiful and completely LOVEable. Any other thought or idea you have about yourself that makes you feel less than this is merely an illusion. You are human, yes indeed, and so we honour every emotion that you may feel on your journey through life and have compassion for everything that you experience. But we do not focus on your seeming mistakes or judgements because we know that they are simply learning curves for you to come back to understanding the real TRUTH of your existence as a Divine, perfect soul who is capable of anything – whose LOVE knows no bounds, whose JOY is the reason for being alive right now.

And so we ask you today to take one second to see yourself and others with this knowing. Ask us to show you, to help you with this feeling of LOVE and then you will begin to recognize the choices you have made in coming to Earth and how absolutely wonderful it is for you to be on the planet with the variety it offers you.

It is a time of great change, we know this and we understand that it takes great courage for you to shift your lives in the moment. But please know that we are here to support you with anything you need because as we shared earlier, there is nothing we see other than your greatness and so it is our pleasure to assist you in experiencing this greatness for yourselves. We ask you to ponder these questions, ‘What would you do if you had no fear? What makes your heart sing? What fills you with the most LOVE? Because you ARE LOVE and so when you feel this LOVE you really are feeling exactly who you are and why you are here. So then there no need to concern yourself with if you were doing the ‘right’ thing because the ‘right’ thing is ALWAYS for you to be who you are in all your glory.

These may seem simple questions and answers for you but truly life is and CAN be simple. Going back to basics, so to speak, is what is necessary now. The complications are only created by fear, by your ego, that forgets the truth. And we see so much potential for your growth now and beyond if you keep these questions in your mind. Make decisions from this place in your heart. Act from this place that knows that miracles are not only possible but inevitable when you follow the calling inside of you to be the shiniest, the most vibrant most amazing YOU you can be! Believe us, when we say that we see this YOU all the time. And we celebrate every step you make in the journey to discover the treasures within and all around you.

You really are BEAUTIFUL. So go ahead. Make a choice now to begin to see it for yourself. And then let the world see it. Choose to make the most out of every minute and we’ll be right with you, cheering you on as your biggest fans. We LOVE YOU. We really do.

Your Angels

Thirty Three Things I’ve Learned

For the past couple of years, before my birthday, I’ve written what I’ve learned, or at least been more reminded of in my recent journey. So here we are again. Thirty three has been good to me. Many lessons. Many blessings!

My love to you all.
Anna

xoxox

1) All of us chose the perfect body for our purpose. Including me.

2) That doesn’t mean I’m totally OK with not being able to run and jump around sometimes. And that’s OK, too.

3) I have a book in me. I have several books in me.

4) And they will be shared and supported in perfect timing.

5) When I hear someone’s voice I hear who they are.

6) The Angels never cease to amaze me.

7) People are far more interested in whether you’re willing to truly listen to them than what qualifications you have.

8) Sweetness is sexy.

9) So is sensitivity.

10) Beautiful friendships with open-hearted people can form very quickly.

11) I rarely see some of the most important people in my life and will never complain about technology for being the reason I can communicate with them daily.

12) I absolutely know what true love is because of my friendships. But I’m equally impatient to share it with someone who is more than a friend.

13) Some of the things that terrify people come easily to me.

14) But I am still scared of driving and won’t learn. If you knew my sense of direction and spatial awareness, you’d understand why.

15) I am so not a multi-tasker but that doesn’t mean I can’t do a lot.

16) Life is confusing. And very clear. All at the same time.

17) I find it difficult to resist bread if it’s put in front of me.

18) I always want to resist exercise but am always grateful when I actually do it.

19) I do not like green smoothies or green tea, no matter how much I try them.

20) Whatever I charge for my services, there will always be those who disagree. My value is up to me.

21) A sense of humour is essential.

22) Never assume people know how you feel. If you want them to know, tell them.

23) I am a very emotional person but I am not someone who can cry and still manage to look or sound pretty. If I cry, it’s rarely a tear or two.

24) I need my own space more than I thought.

25) I am both more silly and more shy than most people think.

26) Some days I listen to a song over and over again and it makes me feel better.

27) Music changes people’s lives. Never underestimate it.

28) Or kindness. It costs nothing but could mean everything.

29) We live and die when we are meant to. Even if it makes no sense.

30) Worrying never helps anything.

31) Praying for what you want, as if it’s already here, does.

32) My favourite moments in life are never grand but a little pampering is definitely good for my soul. They don’t call me the Queen for nothing!

33) We are so much more than our circumstances and rising above them is a conscious choice at every moment.

This Part Of Me

This Part Of Me

There’s this part of me, part of me that I did my best to avoid well into my twenties, only catching glimpses of it on a day when I had enough energy to take a trip, or to watch a movie, or even just to get dressed into something nicer than the comfiest clothes I could find. ‘Avoid’ is probably the wrong word. I just couldn’t feel it at all. Yes, I am a girlie girl – I love make up and clothes and pretty things. But when you’re fighting to get through the day, to muster up enough will to do the simplest tasks, all of the frills are rarely given a chance. Perhaps my circumstances were good enough reason back then. I was hardly at school, or around my peers and my social life was such that dinner out with a friend or two was a major event, especially when that alone was likely to leave me needing hours of rest to recover from the fun. How could I go out and carve a life for myself in the state I was in? However, as my health improved and I was more able to live the things loved, rather than just imagine them in my head, I started to discover this energy within me, this fire, this connection to my body, other than pain, that I had barely touched on before. I remember once, receiving a very quiet but clearly Divine message that ‘passion breeds passion’, and I soon realized what it meant. As I immersed myself in creativity and all that I was passionate about, life began mirroring these passionate experiences back to me – it was like a switch had been turned on! For the first time, I actually felt something more electric than the compassionate love I had always felt for everyone around me. It’s true that I can love anyone given half the chance, and those I am more connected to than usual, really do get all of me. Or almost. Because there’s this part of me, a part of me that most rarely see. The difference now is, I cannot avoid it anymore. It’s there all the time, longing to be seen. I have asked myself over and over why I kept it neatly hidden away for so long; there’s a very good argument to say, that it’s because I’m waiting for the ‘best’; that I never had the chance to fall in love growing up, so why waste a moment on messing around with ‘maybes’? I’ll just bide my time; that dreams do come true and I am NOT settling for anything less than I deserve. But if I was entirely honest, that isn’t the whole story and I think my health challenges only magnified the reasons why the true, romantic love I desire has eluded me so far. It’s easy for me to see, too, in the big scheme of things, beyond all the physical diagnosis, that my dear, teenage body was so tired of it’s disconnection with the rest of me, that it shut down. Because, in the last few years, when I’ve felt alive and well with sensuality, I realize how quickly my mind is dragged into the dark corners that tell me this is not a body I could share with anyone; that even if a man did initially feel a pull towards me, they would soon see all my flaws and incapabilities and kindly but quickly gravitate towards someone else – someone who could give them things I never can; how the kind of beautiful, sexy, strong, loving man I desire would be here by now if he was going to show up… and who the heck am I for wanting so much, anyway? Who would want ME, anyway? Yes, I know how ridiculous that sounds. Believe me. Cue the unavailable men. Or the unrequited attraction in either direction – all a result of my buying into the heaviness that I couldn’t possibly carry about anyone on the planet… except myself. Which is why I am sharing this with you now, and why at this point in my life, I want to give the huge, limiting lies a voice so I can truly let them GO. And I know I’m not the only one. I’m sure there are a multitude of reasons we give ourselves to try and justify why we are unworthy of what we truly desire, especially when it comes to love and romance, because for the majority of us, it’s what we want most in the world, right? But this part of me, this passionate woman in her so-called ‘prime’ –  is READY. I am no longer going to deny who I am or what I want, for fear of it being unattainable to me. I’m going to fully acknowledge the sexual, sensual part of me as being as important as any other, and claim my belief in deep, mutual attraction and love not just in a general sense, not just in my favourite movie or for my best friend, but for myself. For the ‘us’ I want to create. And I’m going to let it take me wherever it needs to and be open to whatever happens, because I know that the only way I can have what and who is right for me is to be utterly truthful in the first place. I’m also going to remember that when I am frustrated by the perception others have of me, (‘angelic and sweet’ is lovely but so overused in my world!) that they simply serve as a reminder to be ALL of who I am and not just what is expected of me. So here I am: feeling the energy of my Beloved, and excited to trust in the intensity that tells me he is near! And if this message speaks to you in any way, please do join me in choosing to live fully by making a promise to yourself to LOVE – not only in the ways you’ve been used to, or the ways that feel most comfortable to you, but in every way! For me, at least, there seems no other choice in this moment, which is terrifying yet incredibly liberating! Who would want ME? Someone rare, perhaps, but someone… From my heart and all of me, Anna

That’s What Friends Are For

It’s no coincidence that the dear friend I talked to on the phone today, also just posted a blog about friendship. When I called, I hadn’t heard her voice for several months but as soon as we began talking it was as if any time between our conversations or miles between our homes vanished. And despite the fact that we’d talked over an hour, it was as if we’d only just begun to catch up!

On the other hand, our honesty meant we got right to the core of what had been happening in our lives. I know there were times when we both felt vulnerable, but that’s what made it beautiful, too, because we were sharing our hearts – the painful, inexplainable, changeable, enjoyable experience of life without edits and yet, without having to share every detail of our stories or what we felt, we just knew.

It got me thinking about close friendship. That it’s when we allow ourselves to be open – hearted, we get the most in return. Not out of expectation but because that’s just how life works, how acceptance of ourselves and eachother works. We may not have walked the same path but to be able to walk in the shoes of those we love for a moment and truly say ‘I hear you’ is such a gift. Even in words unspoken. Especially in words unspoken.

It is a rare treasure to find such a safe place to BE but a place I feel blessed to share with a handful of wonderful people and is perhaps why it can come as a shock or disappointment to be met with an occassional, less than supportive experience from others I wanted to trust as much. Having said that, I am aware that those who push my buttons actually give me the opportunity to look in the mirror and face the parts of myself that are not so healthy. So while they may never cheer me on in the same way my best friends do, my uncomfortableness gives me the impetus to make changes I’ve been tip-toeing around, and reminds me of the abundance of love I share with the true friends who are there for me no matter what!

No man (or woman!) is an island. We’re in this together! So if you are wishing for closer friendships or new ones to share your life with, reach out and share your heart! Our pain may have us believe it’s safer to remain hidden but the world is full of kindness if we choose to see it that way. And then instead of focusing on the risk it may take to open up, we see that there is far greater risk in the doing the opposite.

As Leo Buscaglia said:

To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.” 

Will you take a risk with me?

Much love to you, to Laura who inspired this post, and my amazing friends who see my best and worst but love me anyway… you know who you are!!

Anna xxx

Where is the Love?

I rarely feel the need to comment on politics but sometimes life (in this case, two things I read while scrolling down my News Feed on Facebook) just makes me go ‘Huh? What century do we live in? Where is the Love?!’

As someone who has lived with physical challenges since birth, it particularly rattles me to see that in 2012, talented people are still being ‘turned away’ from something they would like to do because they use a wheelchair. I can understand people’s curiosity and therefore their questioning, but to decide how capable someone else is based on whether they can walk or not, seems completely upside down to me, particularly in the spiritual community where so many proclaim their belief in unconditional love! This example is just one of the reasons I have found myself battling with my own self-acceptance for many years.

As I write these words, I realize that this is the whole point, right? That if we are a reflection of eachother, and are still faced with so much discrimination, then it just shows how much we are all stuck in a very non-accepting place of ourselves. Of course, if I tried to explain that to the person who dismissed my friend or to the crowds who stood outside a U.S. restaurant yesterday in support of ‘traditional marriage’ (as opposed to same sex marriage) they would just roll their eyes. But – and I try to remember this as much as I can myself – how is it possible to be truly happy and peaceful at the same time as holding such strong judgement of other people? It isn’t. And what comes out of someone’s mouth is always about them, whereas how I react is up to me.

So here I go. Here I am judging the judgers. Here I am caught up in a prickly place because these kind of views really upset me. What can I do? I can look to myself. I can breathe and calm down. I can choose to speak my truth and yet not let other people’s fear and pain become the source of mine. I can decide to be kinder to myself and consciously choose peace. And with perfect timing, too. Because in the last week, since I had a very powerful healing session, and then felt the Angels wings around me on Saturday (see my last post) I have been experiencing myself in a whole new way! I am not going to pretend I’ve been jumping up and down with joy, or that everything has changed in seven days but given that this whole year has been hugely transformative for me and I’m constantly feeling ‘new’, I am beginning to see very real evidence that layers of my self judgement are being steadily and surprisingly unravelled: I have looked at myself in the mirror and been proud of what I have seen. I have glanced down at my legs whilst wearing a mini-dress and remarked that they looked ‘nice’. It may not seem like much but for someone who has spent decades fighting the body I chose, it could not be more significant or profound. I am quietly excited at what will happen next and at the far reaching implications that this deeper acceptance will begin to have on the rest of my life.

And so, while I cannot do much about those who still use colour, race, physical ability, sexual preference, (you name it), as reasons to separate us, I can choose to remember all the ways we are the same, how we are all doing the best we can with what we know and that, in truth, despite our best efforts to try and prove otherwise, there is absolutely NOTHING that keeps ANYONE from being divinely perfect, loved and loveable… just as they are… and that includes the person in the mirror.

May there be peace in the world and may it start with me!

With much love,

Anna xxx