If you been reading my blog recently, you’ll know that I’ve been in a reflective mood about my body. It’s been snowing here the last few days and I am barely able to leave the house so perhaps that has something to do with it. Added to that, this seems to be the year to go right to the core of our issues and Self Love is almost always it. Yes, I know. It’s a HUGE topic and we are all on our own journey with it, right?
So, I have decided to share something I wrote on my personal Facebook page today with YOU. Not for compliments or sympathy but because it is my truth and I am nothing if not truthful:
‘My body has always given me plenty of reasons not to love it. It has caused me pain, stopped me doing things, kept me still when all I wanted to do was run and dance, made me sick for years, made me different from the rest, been the object of so much staring (and not nearly enough of the ‘I want you’ kind) because most cannot see past it. Even some who I thought did, proved otherwise with their comments. But I know it’s time to love it anyway. To radically change the way I feel. Otherwise, I’ll just get more of the same. And my body is pretty cool in it’s miraculous ability to survive and move against the odds, and in it’s huge resilience, strength and ability to adapt to all kinds of changes. I wouldn’t be here without it, either! So I’m going to cut it some slack and stop letting it be the reason I decide I am not enough, or too much or just somewhere in the blah of mediocre. I’m going to send love to my wonky spine and legs and brain – all the parts that drive me crazy – and see what happens. Because I think I’m a really good person and there’s no need to separate my physicality from that, is there? So hey, body, if you’re with me so that we can wake people up to what’s REAL as we go along, then great! I’m on a mission and I know we’re in this together. And I choose to love you. ♥’
As I posted this to my page I read an email from Mastin Kipp on The Daily Love. An amazingly honest blog by an amazing man (check it out at www.thedailylove.com) where he pretty much shared the same feelings, except he explains that his reason not to love himself is his weight. Which just goes to show that while our circumstances may be different, our Self Love (or lack of it) and the way it impacts our lives is Universal. And the ironic thing is, that means that while we may spend our days comparing our selves, we are not so different from eachother after all, huh?
In fact, I absolutely know that the majority of us have hundreds of excuses not to love ourselves and I also know that in the eyes of the Divine absolutely none of them make any sense. How does our shape, size, movement make us less than anyone else? They do not. It’s the biggest lie we’ll ever believe. And I’m ready to let go of the lie. Are you with me?
Much love to you, to me and everyBODY.
Anna